Response to page 90 in BSSA

When Wallace comes into the house you kind of feel like there is this thing that he is missing from the conversation. Like the ability to make a story that lets Wallace enjoy the moment of spending time with his daughter is there but the inability to let go of what he is- a fighter is holding him back. All Wallace thinks is abut the fight, about conflict about the man that he pushed down. It's almost like Wallace is more worried about the ability to fight the ability to make a decision on whether to fight r not is more importation than what people tell him is important.
Wallace is in a state that bring to the front comparisons to people that are not successful in their careers. These people who a barely fighting for survival who do things that are risky just to keep their head afloat. The fighter in Wallace yearns to be fighting but the man that he has become won't let him

In the end Wallace connects the experience of the fight with his day and this conflict with the man in the estuary. It connects to the fight because it's after all the conflict and all the mess that happens to Wallace that day. With the wife of the husband it feels like he can be more honest with her more open to his feelings because she is a woman who is not only older but drunk as well so Wallace feels more comfortable more open to his feelings. This allows a fleeting look inside of the mind of the professional fighter the look deep within the brain of a veteran of the ropes. It's tragic that Wallace feels like the best boxer but in reality is grasping on straws of his hopes and dreams. It almost feels like Wallace wants to be told not to go back or to be prohibited to not fight again. Wallace wants to feel like the under-dog again. To be a hero to somebody. Maybe to himself as the day goes by he has to deal with the mundane life he lives now. When what Wallace really wants is more of that experience of being in the ring with a person and allowing the inner-Wallace talk instead of the boring experience of the normal life.
We see Wallace come into himself as the conversation with the woman escalates, gone are the barriers that he has set up to people he doesn't want to let into his inner thoughts,his inner demons. He feels this connection to this woman because he doesn't want to deal with anybody else. Wallace doesn't want to deal with the cops in their crisp uniforms. He doesn't want to deal with Molly his daughter, he doesn't want to deal with his coach, so instead he decides to apologize to the man who he tripped into the mud.
Wallace is fighting with himself a battle that will decide on what he does after the fights which is tragically not much because to him the fight is all that their is.